What my luck seems to be

I finally found a girl and then it turns she decides to move on for no reason. Things were going great and then a new roommate came into the picture and I was out. I was told it was it was because I was jealous. Not that she was spending time with him. I wish I didnt love her. I wish it didnt hurt.

Dont Blink

Time is a fleeting thing. Constantly in motion and never on my side. For a bit everything was going great moving smoothly. Then the hick-up. She suddenly starts to have fears and worries. Is it to simple for life to be easy for me? Maybe things will work out for a change.

A Strange Turn Of Events

I have found out that my friends were right if I try the world will not stop turning. In fact it can be rather nice. For the first time in over four years I have found someone who makes me happy. Everything is still new and we are taking things slow. It is just odd how with this new person everything just seems to move so easily. I hope and that is new.

Life and Randomness

Having feelings for you for so long but still the wonder of does she feel the same? And then a new girl, do I try or wait and see if something could be between us? I know you, your mind, your heart but whether yours feels the same as mine I haven't a clue. No knowing the wonder of could I be that guy for you? Should I stop these thoughts? Should I try with someone new or is that when you will make your move?

seeing if this will work

I am writing this with my phone and just trying ro see if I might be able to make this work. Tonight I want to tell her. I need to ask her if for nothing else then for my own sanity. I know she likes someone I just hope it may be me but I fear that the answer is no.

A letter to you

It feels like I have known you forever but I find new things everyday that seem to add more to the wonderfulness that is you. I always seem to lose the moment forget the words or simple watch you get in your car. You are brilliant. It is rare for me to find anyone that can keep up with my mind but somehow you do. You have a wall to protect you and hold you strong but I have seen through it. I have seen the gap and have made my way through to find the true beauty that is your heart. You make me happy, after a phone call where your just asking a simple question I have had a brighter day. Everyone see it the change. You make me want to be better and hopefully someday I could be the man that you deserve.

Trying to be more frequent

Well this is suppose to help me figure things out with my life. My life has turned from something that I could say was planned, into this uncertain heep. I have been having feelings for a certain someone for a while now and I just seem to keep losing the nerve to talk to her about the one thing that I wish to say. We have had all types of conversations about everything that I can imagine but I have been unable to tell her that I like her, although I doubt that she is blind to it, heck I think the entire mall knows that I like her. She is one of those women that it is easy to fall for. She acts as if a wall surounds her but is fluff. She is one of the few girls I can have a conversation about almost anything and have her understand and contribute. I am going to tell her or ask her out soon. I will. I have to, I dont want to be alone and I could see us together. heres to hope.