Always reviewing

First off why does it always seem like I am always analyzing my life and where I fit in? Lately I have been finding people from my past, people who I haven’t spoken to or seen in around ten years. It is a need to see where people have ended up. Old crushes and the path that it might have lead. Thinking of reasons for why I made the choices I did, and the fear of how easy it is for me to find these people. I need to get my P.I.’s license. The friends that I have found seem happy and I wonder if my dictions had been different would that be different now?