I got the belt

Last Saturday was one of my oldest friends, Patrick's wedding. First a thing about Patrick, he is one of the sweetest, nicest guy anyone could ever hope to know, and yesterday was he and his now newly wifes day. There was a picture montage before the cerimony began showing them both through the years. It was an eye opening because it made me think of how much I had missed from his life and how I missing having someone in mine.

At the reception I found a table where I actually knew someone. It was an old friend who I have know since kidnergarden and when I think of how long ago that was I feel really old. Her husband was one of the groomsmen so he was seated elseware. It was a great dinner and when it came to start the dancing the dj proved to be like every other dj I have ever seen at a wedding or reunion. Let just say I had to save him twice because he didnt know how to work an ipod. I wont bother making a stament about his levels, the eq or other things because I tried my best to zone out on those things and just have a good time.

Dancing, it started of slow where we would just almost stand there while he played some oldies and do some funny dances. The scary thing was that I knew so many from having worked Buddy Baxster for two years and watching it everyday.

So I went and sat down for a while and they started the whole flowers and belt tradition. When they called all the bachelors up there I think I may have been the only straight one. So I caught it and sat back down. First off I have to apologize if there was another straight guy because it is suppose to mean that I am the next to get hitched and I havent even found a date. Although I did see someone who was just mesmerizing. Finally just got out there and started dancing and we were talking a little when Jen came over and introduced us(Jen love ya) This girl was a ball of energy and at one point asked me if I knew what dance we hadnt done yet, when I said no she started doing the electric slide. Didnt get to talk too much with her but did end the night with a slow dance.

It was wonderful evening and I am thankful to have been there, thank you guys.

Tish said I would

WERE YOU NAMED AFTER ANYONE? My father picked my name not know it was my mother's older brother who had past

WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU CRIED? with tears a while, just the emotion of wanting to a few days

DO YOU LIKE YOUR HANDWRITING? It could be better but I am a guy

WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE LUNCH MEAT? honey baked ham

DO YOU HAVE KIDS? No but I do live with a family with 3

IF YOU WERE ANOTHER PERSON, WOULD YOU BE FRIENDS WITH YOU? I dont know it might be too much for the universe

DO YOU USE SARCASM A LOT? Nah never

DO YOU STILL HAVE YOUR TONSILS? Yes

WOULD YOU BUNGEE JUMP? sure

WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE CEREAL? cheerios

DO YOU UNTIE YOUR SHOES WHEN YOU TAKE THEM OFF? No

DO YOU THINK YOU ARE STRONG? yes

WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE ICE CREAM? strawberry freeze

WHAT IS THE FIRST THING YOU NOTICE ABOUT PEOPLE? eyes and hair

RED OR PINK? Red

WHAT IS THE LEAST FAVORITE THING ABOUT YOURSELF? My inability to tell girls I like my feelings

WHO DO YOU MISS THE MOST? My mom

WHAT COLOR PANTS AND SHOES ARE YOU WEARING? gray shorts and vans

WHAT WAS THE LAST THING YOU ATE? pasta

WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO RIGHT NOW? Roo playing Viva Pinyata

IF YOU WHERE A CRAYON, WHAT COLOR WOULD YOU BE? midnight blue

FAVORITE SMELLS? Vanilla or strawberry

WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE? Steve

FAVORITE SPORTS TO WATCH? I would rather play

HAIR COLOR[S]? Light brown but now it is red

EYE COLOR? Blue

DO YOU WEAR CONTACTS? No just glasses sometimes

FAVORITE FOOD? Italian or Mexican

SCARY MOVIES OR HAPPY ENDINGS? depends but can I have the happy ending

LAST MOVIE YOU WATCHED? la4er cake

WHAT COLOR SHIRT ARE YOU WEARING? gray

SUMMER OR WINTER? Winter

HUGS OR KISSES? yes PLEASE

FAVORITE DESSERT? cheese cake

MOST LIKELY TO RESPOND? No one

LEAST LIKELY TO RESPOND? Kevin Smith I liked Tish's answer, Sorry Kevin

WHAT BOOK ARE YOU READING NOW?Doctor Who attack of the Cybermen

WHAT IS ON YOUR MOUSE PAD? no mouse pad

WHAT DID YOU WATCH ON TV LAST NIGHT? no tv went to starbucks with friends

FAVORITE SOUND[S]? soft whispers and laughter

ROLLING STONES OR THE BEATLES? The Beatles

WHAT IS THE FARTHEST YOU HAVE BEEN FROM HOME? I have been back and forth from coast to coast

DO YOU HAVE A SPECIAL TALENT? I am a man of many talents

WHERE WERE YOU BORN? Hanford, Ca

WHOSE ANSWERS ARE YOU LOOKING FORWARD TO GETTING BACK? anyones

Monday Melee for 6/11/07

1. The Misanthropic: Name something (about humanity) that you absolutely hate. I hate the fact that everyone always expects me to be happy, cant I just have a day where I

2. The Meritricious: Expose someone or something that’s phony, fraudulent, or bogus. My bad guy attitude, sorry she said I needed to act more for my self and this is what she wanted, and maybe it will change the wy she sees me.

3. The Malcontent: Name something you’re unhappy with. I'm unhappy with me. I have found too much of myself in tv characters lately and although they are good characters the qualities I am finding arent.

4. The Meritorious: Give someone credit for something and name it if you can. Sharon for being a good friend and trying to help me move in the right direction

5. The Mirror: See something good about yourself and name it. My mind is capable of all kinds of creative and unimaginable ideas, but it seems to dwell on hopes and wants of things that cant be.

6. The Make-Believe: Name something you wish for. I wish for a normal life

Feast One Hundred & Forty Seven

{Featured Flickr Feast by matzoe}

Appetizer
What do you consider to be the ultimate snack food?

chips they are simple

Soup
On a scale of 1 to 10 (with 10 as highest), about how popular is your last name?

1 my name is rare and easy to misspell

Salad
Who is your all-time favorite sitcom character, and why?

I would have to say right now it would be The Doctor from Doctor Who. i find alot of myself in his personality, what can I say he is a smartass and so am I.

Main Course
Do you shop online? If so, name some sites you like to browse for goodies.

I use ebay every now and then

Dessert
Fill in the blank: I think ___________ should be ___________.

I think my life should be easier.

Tired and Hurt

Well I have gone and done it again. Yup because of my inability to tell the girl I like that I like her, she has gone and got with another guy. Her ex came into town, I hated this guy before. He is am ass. This is just further proof of how nice guy finish. I am tired, lonely, and broken. She feels stupid for doing it, even without my emotions and feelings brought into the equation. I dont know if she knows but she could. I have been strong the last week, when she asked him if she was worth fighting for he said "uh yeah." I told her how he was wrong, she wasnt worth fighting for, she was worth dying for. Sometimes I just wish I could.

Monday Melee 6/4/07

Tish did it so now so will I

1. The Misanthropic: Name something (about humanity) that you absolutely hate. How women like the bad boy but complain about wanting to find a nice guy

2. The Meritricious: Expose someone or something that’s phony, fraudulent, or bogus. Paris Hilton

3. The Malcontent: Name something you’re unhappy with. My love life wait I dont have one

4. The Meritorious: Give someone credit for something and name it if you can. Bill Gates for the x-box 360 it is great

5. The Mirror: See something good about yourself and name it. My broken heart, hope is the ultimate torture when it doesn't happen

6. The Make-Believe: Name something you wish for. I wish for love, someone who I can hold and the cares of the world will leave us both. And if "she" was the one to figure it out even better.

More for Tish

Tish wanted me to go on about psychic visions.

I have always been spiritually adept. I can find ghost and sometimes tell what they are feeling. Working in theaters there is usually a stage ghost and it is an easy way to mess with the cast.

A few years a go now I lived with a psychic and if I thought I had seen some crazy things before it ws nothing compared to him. He would have sayonces (sorry cant spell and spell check cant find it) where this old white guy became black. The pigment in his skin would change and a face would over lay his own. Well he was helping me control what I could do and focus. Now I get flashes, short clips of a scene. For instance the girl I like she was talking about her ex(1. I don't like like him. He is an ass. He can spend $700 on a pair of jeans but cant pay for a pair of movie tickets. 2. I don't like him) and I got this vision of her and him fighting and her getting mad enough to through her cell phone and break it. I asked her if she throws things when she get mad and she just wanted to know how I knew.

I am good at knowing a persons character when or even sometimes before I meet them. This use to drive my ex crazy. I would tell her how this person is acting like "A" because of "B and C" and it would take sometime for their true colors to show but I was usually right.

My biggest problem is sometimes the images come on too fast like a tidal wave and nothing makes sense. All it does is make me light headed.

The Eternal Friend

Is it my place? I can find the girl of my dreams and in the end I am nothing more then a friend, sometimes the "best friend". I always get that "I dont want to ruin our friendship". Too late that though has changed the way we see one another. Why am I the one that the girls always run to when the guys are jerks or asses. But when the tears clear I am still far from their view. They all say how they want a nice guy but run for the assholes. Yes I am jealous, yes I am mad. I am tired of being just a friend.