My Fathers Gone

Okay let me first say I know tragedy strikes everyone. And the news I received I have been expecting for a while now.

My father has passed away. He has had MS since I was 2. He was never a fighter and gave up when he got the news. My entire life I have watched my father decline in his mobility. By the time I was in the 7th grade he was completely in a wheel chair. My brothers and I made a play day when ever he would get the new model chair we would play in the old one outside, seeing how fast we could roll down the street.

When I was in high school, my father’s memory was going to the point he had no short term memory, not that me and my brother used this. “Yes Mom I told Dad where I was going.”

I haven’t seen my father in years, the last time I saw him, he was a shell, trapped in the mind but unable to move or even talk. At least now he is out of that torture.

Feast One Hundred & Six

Appetizer
Tell about a toy you remember from your childhood.
I remember having lots of transformers the old ones are always the best.

Soup
If you could make one thing in the world absolutely free for everyone, what would it be?
money

Salad
Approximately how many times per day do you think about your significant other?
You all can kiss my ass, you thing I am single and I think of my lack of other alot.

Main Course
What is something you believe in 100%?
The sun

Dessert
Name one thing you have done this week that you would consider a "good deed."
I helped a guy whos car had died.

Always reviewing

First off why does it always seem like I am always analyzing my life and where I fit in? Lately I have been finding people from my past, people who I haven’t spoken to or seen in around ten years. It is a need to see where people have ended up. Old crushes and the path that it might have lead. Thinking of reasons for why I made the choices I did, and the fear of how easy it is for me to find these people. I need to get my P.I.’s license. The friends that I have found seem happy and I wonder if my dictions had been different would that be different now?

Feast One Hundred & Five

Appetizer
Name an actor or actress you think is totally underappreciated.
Tim Curry he is brillant

Soup
Impress us by using a big word in a sentence.
A esquipedalist is a person who uses big words

Salad
What is something inanimate that you've given a name to (such as a pet rock)?
My jeep is named Swindler

Main Course
What color would best represent your personality and why?
blue

Dessert
Fill in the blanks: ________Vacations___ are so ___short_________.

California Review

Okay as many of you know I have spent the last two weeks in California using my ten year reunion as a reason to go back. During the whole planning stage of my trip I wasn’t excited, nervous, or even really looking forward to it. I had become so numb and if anything was worried about the friends I had lost touch with and how crappy a friend I had been.

I had arrived in San Francisco just past midnight on the 15th, yep my birthday and I was back in Cali for the first time in more then two years. I headed to Humboldt first and found that although times change and the place was filled with memories that I could go a long time with out stirring, I had the best birthday I have had in a long time. I went to see Pirates had dinner but it was the fact that I was with people who truly care about me and I them that had been missing in my life for a long time.

When I got to Hanford a few days later I found out something that I had forgotten a long time ago. I had a family even though I wasn’t related to one of them. Catching up with old friends, making old jokes, talking about the future, and sitting around just playing video games, it was simple things but they are always the things that mean the most.

The reunion was less then I expected but then I did try to help the DJ he just didn’t want help, even though he didn’t know the system. I won two gag awards, the yahoo who came the farthest to be there, and the person who has lived in the most places. I was at about 15 with the closest person behind me was 7 I think no matter what I will always win that one. The best part was after the reunion; we went to chili’s and just sat around catching up. These were the people that I had spent so much time with in High School and it reminded me how special each person was, and how I would love to have them back in my daily life.

I then went to Southern California and visited some friends but next time I would love to see more. Things just didn’t work out the way I hoped, although going to Santa Barbara did remind me why I like college towns.

After everything in those busy two weeks I realized something, I want to go back. It will take me some time to save but I plan to move back to California and try to find a theater job in Fresno. Hey I have to go back to see everyone else. Again thanks to everyone for the reminder.